You

I sit here
Pen in hand
Ready
To unload it all
Been on my mind
Its overdue
Let go of it all
The pain
I knew
At first sight
Deep down
We were never meant to be
You kept it from me
The key to who you were...are
You never let it be
Let me in
The nights passed by
Surrounded by shadows
The truth barricaded
I tried
Pleaded
Schemed and plotted
To obtain...procure
You
The real you
But you walked away
To insist would be a mistake
I want so much more
Than a phantom, a fantasy
Maybe it was meant to be
To never know
You

Todo

There's so much
I feel
Want to say
It all bubbles to the surface
I need you
Want you
Its beyond my control
This sensation
Ensnares me
To feel you
Smell you
To be completely
Wrapped
Consumed
In you
All I want
Desire
Crave
See you
Consume you
Give you
Please you
My arms ache
To hold you
Es algo mas de mi
Tengo tantas ganas
de sentirte
Respirarte
Te siento tan junto
A mi
Mi corazón
Tu voz
Acaricia mi corazón
Mi piel
Te necesito
Te deseo
Mis labios
Desean recorrer
Todo tu cuerpo
I can't
I won't
Stop
Hold back
You
Tu
What I want
Lo que quiero
Your are my
Love
Tu eres mi
Amor

Truth...

Pen to paper
Spilling forth
The truth
What I wish I could stay
I wish you would say
Its more than want
Its everything
I tried
To tell you
Couldn't you see it
Couldn't you feel it
Every kiss
Touch
Its was in every
Word
It spilled through
My skin
Will you laid in my arms
You are everything
My heart
Make sense of it all
The madness
Can't you see
That its me and you
Together against
It all
The loneliness
I'd follow you
Anywhere
Without fear
Without
Hesitation
Its all I have
The truth
Need
Me
I
Need
You...

Pieces

I've struggled to live up to...
What you want, need me to be.
Its all too much sometimes,
Trying not to disappoint.
I wanna love you the right way,
Your way.
I can't be someone I'm not,
I'm just me, who I was meant to be.
I wish you could see the good,
See the love.
I throw my heart into it all,
But its never enough for you.
I thought you could see the real me,
Eventually.
I feel lost in the shadows,
Barely breathing.
Pushed down by you,
Gasping for air.
I can't be your puppet,
Pulled along by my strings.
I thought love was everything,
Cause I gave it all to you.
Piece by piece,
You broke me down.
I've come to realize,
Its your heart that's broken.
You could never fell my love,
You're not capable.
Somewhere along the way,
You lost love.
My last drop of love is...
Goodbye.

Forever

You had my heart
That first time you hummed my name
Singing at the top of your lungs
Lyrics rolling off lips
Smiling when you hit that note
We had that one song
Hit replay over and over again
You took the verse
I took the chorus
Felt richer with every note
You were my safety net
From all that was wrong
That hurt me deep down
You wrapped me up in the melody of your voice
I felt the love all around
We never pretended
It was all true
It was me and you
Everything
Anything seemed possible
Protected in that bubble that was love
I never wanted it to end
I wanted us to be
I wanted us to see
All there was
But time was never enough
Two different directions
But its still there
That glimmer
How you felt
How I remember
That last kiss
Locked away
In my heart
Forever

Not Love

How things have changed
Not like they used to be
I thought you were
What I needed
To fill the emptiness inside
You were that ideal
My dream
But damn I was wrong
I lifted you up so high
Didn't see the cracks
The flaws in your smile
You were that shining star to my heart
But all I got
Was fucked over
Broken heart
Smashed to the ground
The disappointment
Its too much
Too hard
To accept
That I was not enough
For you
That you were not
What I wanted you to be
I put myself out there
For you
You made me feel
That something special
But it was all a fantasy
That you could not fulfill
You were there
But not
I almost said it
I loved you
But you never could
Be my love
Not completely
I look at it all
Now
You've moved on
I live on
Keep myself busy
But every now and then
You pop up
The feelings roll in
Anger creeps through my veins
A smile a cross my lips
Confusion sets in
I just want it to be over
To find that peace
It alludes me
You just continue
To haunt me
I know that its not love
Not love at all
Holding on
To what you were
What we were
In my head
How it made me feel
But its not worth
Time spent on an illusion
I want to be free
Of it all
And finally
Of  you
Cause its not love
Not love at all
Its over...

Music's Love

The music that speaks to my soul
Makes me feel free when the walls cave in
When no one seems to understand me
My feelings put to a beat that enwraps me
Helps to let it all go
Lift the weight of expectations
To see the world for what it is and where I fit in
My muse that insists
To create
To never forget
To smile when its far too cold
With music I can do anything
There are no restrictions
Everything at my fingertips
Its followed me though heartbreak
Finding that missing piece of me
Helped to realize that love comes and goes
But I'm still here in the end
Brought forth the strength to discard the ugly
The pessimism that lurks in the corners
Tells my story
With all its cracks, all its dips
Details flow in and out of rhythm
It remains that one constant
By my side
To soothe me of my insecurities
Music is that force
Its everything
Music is me
Music is love

No More

It takes time to see
Took me far too long
To see though to
The real you
You pulled me around
Toyed with my emotions
You had me believing
It all
Even the small
I don't know
How I could
Love you so
I played the part
Your fool
My heartbeat raced
Every time you said my name
Threw the truth in my face
You embraced that part
Left me cold
I gave you me
The world
All you ask for is
More and more
I was never enough
You wanted to the world
I wanted
Need
Love
Unconditional
True
That's not a bit you

Me

Is it too much
To ask for something
For you
Can't you see
The larger picture
See me
I stand here
Grasping at the air
Hold my hand
Give me something
To believe in
Breathe in
Totally
Utterly
Lost without
A word to guide me
A glimmer of hope
Save me from it all
I can't control it
The way I feel
Cold
I need your warmth
Around me
In me
A prisoner of fear
That I won't see
Feel
Happiness once again
Fill me to the brim
I'm here
But you don't see me
Feel me
Come and see
See me
It comes and goes
That feeling
That I can
Once again
See me
Feel me
But I want
I need you
Give me your hand
Your warmth
Your love
To complete
Fill in the empty spaces
To feel again
To see again
Just me

LoVe

So simple
Thinkin' 'bout you
Always one word
Darling
The key that opens
Deep inside
Makes me shiver
Every time
The suns rays
Caress
Can't explain
What it is
Complex
Feel it
You
Love
Breaks me down
Fills me up
Puts me together
You're with me
You see me
Complete
Apart
You
Me
Love