Life...Love

The mistakes I've made...made me,
The person I am.
I can't change the past,
I just move forward.
Whether I stumble or fumble again,
I follow where my path leads.
I met you along the way,
I learned loves lesson.
My heart beats with anticipation,
As the new day begins.
Each day goes by,
Wait to see what happens.
I have no expectations,
Life has its plan for me.
Time is measured and dispensed,
But I try to enjoy every second.
Life is to short,
To burden with worry.
I can't take back,
What I felt...it just was.
Live everyday fully,
And love with all your heart.

That Kiss...1st Kiss

That first kiss drew me in,
The taste of you lingered.
It took my breath away,
And I wanted more.
I would do anything...
Anything to feel that kiss again.
I travel along,
Searching for...
But its that kiss,
That lights the fire in my soul.
Burns brighter each time,
I remember the sensation...your lips.
Letting the fire wash over me,
Keeping it close to my skin.
That kiss...the sweetest drug,
Memories never enough.
To get lost in your kiss,
Its all I can think about.
To feel your kiss,
In every part of my being.
To feel your kiss,
The urgency...beyond anything I've known.
I could remain in the dark,
But your kiss would lead me to the light.
Do you remember....
Remember that kiss?

Believe

Can I dare to believe,
That one day you'll realize,
That you'll finally see,
What you needed was me.
Is it worth it,
To wait and sit,
To hope that you believe it,
That you really want it.
It hurts every time,
That I think of you,
Of what we had,
Of what we could've been.
I felt it deep down,
The words I said were true,
I put my fear aside,
And put my heart in your hands.
Was it all a waste,
Loves fleeting taste,
I thought we were everything,
That we could be more than a secret.
I've sat in the dark,
Not knowing where to go,
Hands tremble, grasping at what might be,
I've lost my reason, my faith.
Was there any truth,
In your embrace,
In the way you looked at me,
The way you took my hand in the dark.
I want to see,
I want to believe,
I need to see,
I need to believe,
That there is more than you.

Ex-Invitation

I know I've said,
Said it till my lips hurt.
Your not worth my time,
Invitation permanently rescinded.
I take back all those pretty words,
Bitterness when I say your name.
If I never see you again,
It would do my mind good.
You toyed with me, my heart,
Now here's your fuck off.
Baby I don't want...
Your I'm sorries.
Its too damn late,
The sweetness is gone.
The door is permanently closed,
Slammed shut in your face.
If I say I miss you,
Its the booze talkin'.
I was strong before you,
Now I'm bullet proof.
You can gimme that look,
But it just bounces off.
You can want, want me,
But all you get is...goodbye.

Waitin

I been waitin for you,

All night long.
Sittin by the phone,
Hopin, hopin it will ring.
I been waitin for you,
But your taken too long.
I watch the sun set,
And your still not here.
I been waitin for you,
But your taken too long.
My friends same I'm a fool,
Say you're usin me.
But my heart knows the truth,
That all you need is me.
I been waitin for you,
But your taken too long.
My friends they say its all lie,
That your playin with my mind.
But they can't see,
That sweet way you look at me.
I'll be waitin for you,
I'll be singin my song....

Lies & Expectations

I want,

I need.

To forget you,

Erase you from my memory...from my heart.

My expectations led me here,

You could never be what I needed.

The things that you say...that you said,

Mean nothing at this point.

Your actions speak volumes,

But it still hurts.

I try to understand,

Why not me???

What do you see in her?,

I thought you wanted better.

I struggle to escape,

This maze of emotions.

Happy to see you,

Angry that it was all a lie.

Every day is a step closer,

To forgetting...us.

I thought I could be what you needed,

Make you see the happier side.

But you want to play old games,

Replay the same broken record.

I want so much more,

And you could never, will never be...