This Desire...

there's nothing sweeter
than your lips against mine
all I want, all I need
is time alone...
time alone with you
my hands rise and fall
against your skin
breathe in your perfume
takes me to another place
there's never enough time
to discover every part of you
can I be...can you be
all that you...all that I...need
my heart beats faster
every time I look into your eyes
I would rather stay here
wrapped up in the way you make me feel
the thirst I have for you
will never be satisfied
there's so much more I have to offer
just gimme the chance
I promise...
you won't regret it...you'll enjoy it
there's never a maybe when it comes to you
my mission...my motivation...is to please you
there's nothing more perfect
than to place that feeling in a kiss
can't but want more and more
my cup will never be full...of you
no other place I'd rather be
than inside of you and this desire...

Love Question

You ask my what I want,
Do I really have to tell you?

I thought it was written...
All over my skin.
I thought you could see it...
In my eyes.
I thought you could hear it...
In the way I said your name.
I thought you could feel it...
In my kiss.
My heart only has room...
For you.
I don't want...need anyone else...
But you.
The melody that plays in my head...
Is you.
I can't see beyond it all...
All I see is you.
What I want...
Is you...is love...

Life...Love

The mistakes I've made...made me,
The person I am.
I can't change the past,
I just move forward.
Whether I stumble or fumble again,
I follow where my path leads.
I met you along the way,
I learned loves lesson.
My heart beats with anticipation,
As the new day begins.
Each day goes by,
Wait to see what happens.
I have no expectations,
Life has its plan for me.
Time is measured and dispensed,
But I try to enjoy every second.
Life is to short,
To burden with worry.
I can't take back,
What I felt...it just was.
Live everyday fully,
And love with all your heart.

That Kiss...1st Kiss

That first kiss drew me in,
The taste of you lingered.
It took my breath away,
And I wanted more.
I would do anything...
Anything to feel that kiss again.
I travel along,
Searching for...
But its that kiss,
That lights the fire in my soul.
Burns brighter each time,
I remember the sensation...your lips.
Letting the fire wash over me,
Keeping it close to my skin.
That kiss...the sweetest drug,
Memories never enough.
To get lost in your kiss,
Its all I can think about.
To feel your kiss,
In every part of my being.
To feel your kiss,
The urgency...beyond anything I've known.
I could remain in the dark,
But your kiss would lead me to the light.
Do you remember....
Remember that kiss?

Believe

Can I dare to believe,
That one day you'll realize,
That you'll finally see,
What you needed was me.
Is it worth it,
To wait and sit,
To hope that you believe it,
That you really want it.
It hurts every time,
That I think of you,
Of what we had,
Of what we could've been.
I felt it deep down,
The words I said were true,
I put my fear aside,
And put my heart in your hands.
Was it all a waste,
Loves fleeting taste,
I thought we were everything,
That we could be more than a secret.
I've sat in the dark,
Not knowing where to go,
Hands tremble, grasping at what might be,
I've lost my reason, my faith.
Was there any truth,
In your embrace,
In the way you looked at me,
The way you took my hand in the dark.
I want to see,
I want to believe,
I need to see,
I need to believe,
That there is more than you.

Ex-Invitation

I know I've said,
Said it till my lips hurt.
Your not worth my time,
Invitation permanently rescinded.
I take back all those pretty words,
Bitterness when I say your name.
If I never see you again,
It would do my mind good.
You toyed with me, my heart,
Now here's your fuck off.
Baby I don't want...
Your I'm sorries.
Its too damn late,
The sweetness is gone.
The door is permanently closed,
Slammed shut in your face.
If I say I miss you,
Its the booze talkin'.
I was strong before you,
Now I'm bullet proof.
You can gimme that look,
But it just bounces off.
You can want, want me,
But all you get is...goodbye.

Waitin

I been waitin for you,

All night long.
Sittin by the phone,
Hopin, hopin it will ring.
I been waitin for you,
But your taken too long.
I watch the sun set,
And your still not here.
I been waitin for you,
But your taken too long.
My friends same I'm a fool,
Say you're usin me.
But my heart knows the truth,
That all you need is me.
I been waitin for you,
But your taken too long.
My friends they say its all lie,
That your playin with my mind.
But they can't see,
That sweet way you look at me.
I'll be waitin for you,
I'll be singin my song....

Lies & Expectations

I want,

I need.

To forget you,

Erase you from my memory...from my heart.

My expectations led me here,

You could never be what I needed.

The things that you say...that you said,

Mean nothing at this point.

Your actions speak volumes,

But it still hurts.

I try to understand,

Why not me???

What do you see in her?,

I thought you wanted better.

I struggle to escape,

This maze of emotions.

Happy to see you,

Angry that it was all a lie.

Every day is a step closer,

To forgetting...us.

I thought I could be what you needed,

Make you see the happier side.

But you want to play old games,

Replay the same broken record.

I want so much more,

And you could never, will never be...

Sin Ti

¿Que sabes de mi?

Si me acabas de conocer.

Mi corazón no eres para...

Para tu juego frío.

Me esconderé de ti,

Y tus ojos que me comen por dentro.

Si te miro otra vez,

Me caigare en tus brazos.

Me tengo que detener,

Este sentimiento que me haces sentir.

Es como el fuego,

No se quiere apagar.

Si pudiera ir atrás,

Nunca te hubiera conocido.

Es demasiado,

Todo esto que corre por mi cabeza.

Me tengo que ir lejos de este amor, este pasión,

Que al final me va ser daño.

Mi vida seguiré,

Sin la sensación de tus labios, de tus manos.

Cruel

I tried to hold...
The dream that was you and me.
I tried to keep it together,
Never a big enough bandaid.
I tried to be...
What you wanted.
It was never enough,
I tried.

The truth of your love,

Was a cold blow.

I had built you up...in my mind,

You were everything.

I thought you were my shelter,

From frigid loneliness.
I handed over my heart,
Without question, without doubt.
I lost all of me in you,
I was left with nothing.
The song of my memories,
Follows me like a shadow.
Wish I could erase you,
Wish I never knew you.
But deep down in my heart,
I could never be that cruel...like you...

Un Paso (One Step)

Algunas cosas pueden ser tan simples,
Pero al mismo tiempo te pueden romper por dentro.
Lo que sentí por ti era mas allá de palabras,
Definitivamente fue mi motivación.
Una y otra vez,
Perdí control de mi misma.
Te quise por dentro y por fuera,
Pero me enterré en el proceso.
Me empujaste a la acera,
Dijiste que yo era demasiada.
Todo es tan loco y retorcido.
A pesar de todo todavía te quiero.
Trato de estar ocupada,
Pero siempre estas al rededor mis pensamientos.
Miro el reloj,
Preguntando cuando regresaras.
Mi ser racional me dice que es un perdicio...
De mí tiempo y de mi amor.
Quisiera que pudiera encararme el corazón,
Para caminar sin el peso de mis sentimientos.
Cada día es un proceso,
Cada día es un paso lejos...de mi amor.

One Step

Some things can be so simple,
But then it can just rip you up inside.
What I felt for you was beyond words,
It was most definitely my motivation.
Time and time again,
I lost control of me.
I wanted you inside and out,
But buried myself in the process.
You pushed me to the curb,
Said I was just too much...
Its just all so crazy and twisted,
Regardless I still want you just as bad as yesterday.
I try to keep occupied,
But you're just a thought away.
Lookin' at the clock,
Wonderin' when you'll be home.
My rational self tells me its a waste...
Of my time and my love.
Wish my heart could just be locked away,
To walk without the weight of my feelings.
Everyday is a process,
Everyday is one step further from...my love.

Letter To Grandpa

Can you hear me grandpa?

I hope you can.

There are so many things I wanted to tell you,

But I never had the chance to.

But I know that you’re with me,

Where ever I may go.

I’ll miss your never ending stories,

The sound of excitement in your voice.

You taught me so many things,

To be myself and embrace the differences of others.

That there are always lessons to be learned,

No matter how old I get.

The greatest thing you gave me was the love of music,

I’ll always have your song in my heart.

En Mi Mente

La tengo clavada en mi mente,
Como mi canción favorita,
No quiero que se valla,
Que se quede a mi lado para siempre,
Es mi mayor deseo,
Me veo entre su brazos,
Arropandome en sus caricias,
Solamente ella me sabe hacer sonreír,
Con esa alegria que me cautiva.
Es ella que me hacer respirar la vida,
Sin miedo de lo que puede ocurrir,
Me da es fuerza para segiur,
Para creer en quien soy,
Aun no le e podido decirle,
Porque ella aun no sabe que existo.

La Escribí

La escribí...

Por todos lados.

La escribí por todo el cuerpo,

En cada rincón de mi ser.

La escribí en el aire que respiro,

Por el viento que acaricia mi cara.

La escribí en mis labios,

Cada palabra tiene un tinto de ella.

La escribí en mis sueños,

Donde todavía somos felices.
La escribí en mi corazón,
Que hoy esta en pedazos.

Clean Slate

I've twisted this around,

Every which possible way.

Wipe the slate clean,

There's no other way.

You want to be friends,

After being a pale memory.

Words could never erase,

All the crap I went through.

Pain evolved into anger,

Kept inside for far too long.

I buried you deep,

In the back of my mind.

Why did you have to resurface?

Wear apologies like a shield.

Are you afraid of me?

Of what I'll say?

I'm not that naive girl anymore,

I've grown from my mistakes.

My life stopped including you,

And it’s better that way.

I'm happy with my present,

And not even you can change that.

My Chance

Time just seemed to stop,
The moment I said your name.
There was an urgency,
It poured right out of me.
I know its you that I want,
But am I asking for too much?
You see me but not the way I want,
Under the cover of friendship.
I've told myself time and again,
To be satisfied with...
To just walk away from it all,
But my heart tells me otherwise.
Can't you see the affect...
You have on me.
I want...I need to,
So much more than I've been.
I thought time was on my side,
That maybe you would come around.
Lately I feel I give too much,
Leaves me feeling empty.
But somehow I still want...still need,
A glance, a word from you.
Sometimes I feel like I've lost my way,
Wrapped up in my feelings.
But I know deep down,
That I'm worth so much more.
Still you don't see me,
This is my chance...
I've got to walk away,
While I still have a grip.
Grabbing it with both hands,
This is my moment.

At Times

At times…

It seemed too much.

I threw myself…completely,

Into it.

Denial was never an option,

The truth was on my face.

Occupying every inch…

Every second of my being.

It was all over me,

I wanted nothing more, nothing less.

I wanted, I needed,

All of it, all of the time.

That time away…solitude,

A slap of ice to my heart.

I was at a loss,

Lost without purpose.

Memories and dreams,

Were never enough to quench the thirst.

I tried to run away from it,

But it was there every waking moment.

Scratching at the surface,

To find myself again.

It’s a struggle to remain whole…to not fall apart.

But somehow deep down I find the strength,

In the song of who I was…of who I am.